…that I simply never had my shit together. It is an easy case to make. I would have made that case of myself had I had to analyze a lot of my actions since I finished my “undergraduate degree”. Just remember this, awareness of conversational domination techniques can have implications. Writing for the sake of writing to crowd out others that are not writing can have implications. Stealing attention that is not worth stealing can have implications. I never really wanted to steal attention. I never really thought it was necessary. But, that is only because I come from middle class wealth. It is essential to steal attention to live for many people, at any cost, from any direction. Awareness of this has made me reexamine priorities of writing. I am not sure I fully have a solution yet either.
Shutting people out and making an arrangement whether it be with words, images, or physical objects is simply being an artisan. It is a way of making a living. You can admire the ability that some have to shut others out and create “a work”, that is entirely up to the admirer. But, wealth and competition need to be considered. Hunger is a distraction. Overcoming distractions for the middle class is easier than it is for the poor.
What I see and the way I see it has to do with many subjects that are not popular. They are not fun. Not exciting. They are bleak, bloody, and involve masses. It is easy to say, “don’t waste your time”. But, those that know a thing or two about the history of philosophical systems and how they relate to law and political systems may understand what I mean.
